Something Has To Change
Dragonsfall Weyr
Amber Hills Hold
Vintner Hall
Healer Hall
Hidden Meadows
Dolphin Cove Weyr
Dolphin Hall
Emerald Falls Hold
Harper Hall
Printer Hall
Green Valley Hold
Leeward Lagoon Hold
Barrier Lake Weyr
Sunstone Seahold
Citrus Bay Hold
Writers: Eimi
Date Posted: 31st March 2007
Characters: B'ram
Description: B'ram knows a change needs to be made...
Location: Dolphin Cove Weyr
Date: month 2, day 27 of Turn 4
Some men would not have seen that little visit as a success. After all, B'ram and Eleada never got off the couch and only traded a few... rather heated kisses. They mostly just talked, and flirted, and drank their wine. No sex, not even any hints at taking it further. Just that warm glow in the pit of his stomache that was more from the lady than the wine. And he was pretty sure he had a rather goofy grin plastered on his face, even now as he laid back on his bed and reviewed the evening in his mind.
}:You're very happy tonight,:{ Girifith sighed contentedly from his couch.
**I am, I really am,** B'ram agreed. **I like her a lot.**
}:More than Trae?:{ his brown asked curiously.
**Please, Girifith, I'm trying to enjoy my evening. Let's not talk about her. And for Faranth's sake, stop calling her by her name.**
That was really getting on his nerves.
His lifemate just snorted and adjusted position, unphased by his rider's comment.
Of course now that her name had come up, it made it that much harder not to think about her. **She's nothing like Trae. She just makes me feel good. Only good.**
}:Like _she_ did?:{ B'ram knew who Girifith was refering to. He knew his lifemate remembered Atreyn's name, but refused to say it anymore. Not since she broke his rider's heart in a way the brown just could not understand.
**Yes, it's more like _she_ made me feel.**
}:Then I like Trae better. Trae doesn't make you feel that way.:{
**But that's not a _good_ thing, Girifith,** B'ram countered, sitting up on his elbows so he could look out his open door towards where his lifemate lay curled on his couch. **I _like_ feeling this way again. I feel... alive and happy when I'm with Eleada. Every time she smiles I just can't help smiling with her. And when we kiss... shards...** How could he explain to a dragon who only mated when instict demanded what foreplay, even in the form of flirting, felt like.
}:I know how it feels,:{ Girifith replied indignantly. }:I feel what you feel. Her kisses felt good and they made you happy. I like that.
But you felt that way when _she_ kissed you too. Gliorith's rider can hurt you like _she_ hurt you. Trae can't do that. Trae is better for you.:{
**Eleada isn't Atreyn, Giri. I'll willingly take that chance with her.
I just want to feel this way again.**
}:Trae makes you feel that way too. She makes you feel like _she_ made you feel, and Trae won't hurt you that way,:{ his dragon firmly replied.
}:I don't want you to hurt again.:{ B'ram sighed lay back on his bed, wishing he could make his lifemate understand. Of course Girifith was nervous his heart could be broken.
Shards, he was nervous too. But he wanted to take that chance. Shards, he _needed_ to take it. Trae was poison. She slowly worked her way through him, killing him slowly. Shards, she had even gotten to his dragon!
Poor Giri, of course he would see Trae as the lesser of two evils.
Atreyn had shattered his spirit when she left him. He changed. Faranth knows he changed. Who knows if he even would have survived if Giri hadn't been there to hold him together as long as he had to. Of course his lifemate would want to protect him from falling in love again. But the truth of it was, B'ram _wanted_ to be in love again. Trae could make him feel that way in the night, but shardit, he wanted to feel it all the time! He wanted to wake up every morning with that feeling, and carry it through the day. He wanted to count down the seconds to the end of drills just so he could _see_ her. He wanted to make a fool of himself with little trinkets and silly gifts just to make her smile.
And he wanted to make love to her and after the glow had worn off, he wanted to feel no shame.
**I just want to feel good again, Girifith. I want to take chances and not be afraid. I want to fall in love again. I want... I want to be myself again. It's time to put the past behind me and move on. It's time I sharding wake up and take my life back. Something has to change.** And he knew that something was Trae...
Last updated on the April 1st 2007