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Writers: April, Bree
Date Posted: 20th March 2006

Characters: Nocte, U'val
Description: Nocte seeks help from U'val in dealing with Vykor's leaving.
Location: River Bluff Weyr
Date: month 10, day 2 of Turn 3

Nocte walked into the infirmary and made her way to the mind healer's office. She quietly knocked and waited for it to be answered.

It didn't take long. U'val ushered her into his office with a friendly smile and waved at the various chairs. "Take a seat wherever you're comfortable."

"Good day to you U'val. How are you today?" She asked. She was still trying to get the gumption to tell him why she had come.

"Fine, thank you." U'val smiled as he sank back into his own chair, a nice comfortable one that was easy on his joints. "And how are you doing today, Nocte?"

"Could be better. Didn't sleep to well last night." She sighed. U'val nodded. "And is that why you're here?" "Kind of. You know that Vykor has left the weyr right?" she asked.

"I'd heard something of the sort," U'val replied. "How did that come about?"

"I'm not really sure. I came back to my weyr and there was an argument. I don't even really know what the argument was about. Next morning I find him gone." She frowned and a small tear escaped her young eye. "And you think he left because of you?" U'val asked quietly.

"I don't know. At first I blamed myself." She stood and started pacing.
"Then I thought about it some more and I'm not sure he even knew why. I don't think he could handle me being a greenrider. I told him I loved him. I think he was worried that when Quylith rose I would fall for the rider whose dragon flies her. Then it all comes back to me. I keep having a nightmare, that repeats. I'm not sure if it's because I blame myself or what it might be." She finally sat back down and drew her legs up.

U'val nodded. "Why don't you tell me about the nightmare."

"I seem to be chasing after something and all the while I am hearing his voice. I plead with him over and over, but he keeps telling me he is sorry he has to leave. It's as if i think that if I plead with him he may come back." She sighed.

"And do you think he might come back?" U'val asked after a moment. "It's possible he'll return to the Weyr, after all."

"I keep telling myself he will. I really want him too. I'm just not so sure he will. I'm afraid he won't. What if he gets himself killed out there? What if he does come back and he hates me? What if he comes back and I have moved on?" She finally broke down. Tears streamed down. "Do I just wait for him?"

"That's an awful lot of concerns," U'val said gently, reaching for a handkerchief and handing it to Nocte. "Why don't you tell me what your argument was about?"

"I'm not really sure," She sniffled. "I came back to the weyr after spending some time helping a couple of the weyrlings, and he had dinner ready. He got all angry because I was late. Next thing I know he is accusing me of finding interest in other men and spending time with them.
He got all hurt and angry. I told him I hadn't been doing anything but answering questions. Then he got all huffy and left. I was so confused that I didn't go after him. The next morning when I went to talk to him he was gone. he'd just left."

U'val sighed. "That is not your fault, Nocte. If Vykor had remained, I would have done my best to help him with his problems... but he would _have_ to come to terms with what being a dragonrider means. And it means you will talk to other men and spend time with them, and sometimes more. We are all beholden to our dragons, after all."

"I know. I just miss him and wonder if there was something more I could of done. sometimes I think I see him, but then it turns out to be someone else. Should I just forget him?" she knew it would be hard, but perhaps she should. Quylith could rise any time and what if thinking of him caused her to mess it up for her?

"You needn't forget him," U'val said gently. "But thinking about him all the time and regretting what happened won't do you much good. You have a life here, and a dragon to care for. Someday Vykor might understand what that involves and come back. And if he doesn't, you still have a great many people here who would like to be your friends."

"Thank you. I'll remember." She tried a smile. "I'll get going. Don't want to take up all your time." She stood and held out her hand.

U'val shook her hand gently. "But you're always welcome back, Nocte.
Remember that."

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