I'll Understand

Writers: Miriah, Suzee
Date Posted: 15th August 2017

Characters: K'ale, Lanniya
Description: Lanniya goes to K'ale with her admission
Location: Dragonsfall Weyr
Date: month 13, day 3 of Turn 8
Notes: Mentioned; F'lin, Pierka

K'ale

Lanniya

**Imalkyth, I need to speak with Yours. Is he in a meeting or eating?
It's important.** Lanniya landed on the ledge as the sun set but
didn't see the large brown on his couch. She slid down Anaeryth's side
and paced along the ledge, her fingers winding against each other
nervously. He was going to be angry at her, she just knew it.

}:Wing meeting but almost done,:{

A few minutes later, K'ale came in with a smile. "Hi," he said. "This
is a nice surprise."

Lanniya faced him, her face drawn. "K'ale, I need to talk to you. "
She looked down at her fingers, at the picked at cuticles that she had
savaged in her nervousness. "I've...uhm...done something."

"Really," he cocked his head and then crossed to the table. "Have a
seat. Tell me about it." He couldn't imagine what she'd done that
would bring on this kind of nervousness.

Stepping into the weyr, she sat, fiddling with her fingers and unable
to look at him. "Well, you remember F'lin right? My friend?" She
sucked in her lower lip nervously and took a quick breath. "Well, he's
having a really hard time and we kinda argued after a meeting 'cause
he was being a jerk. Then he said that he wasn't worth being my friend
and I hugged him and he kissed me." She glanced up quickly and then
looked back down at her fingers. "I..I kissed him back." She licked
her lips and picked at a fingernail. "He wanted me to go to his weyr,
but I didn't, but..." She flushed brightly, "I kind of wanted to." Her
shoulders hunched, expecting the worst.

Her nerves made the corner of his mouth twitch but he certainly didn't
want her to see that. She was entirely too delicious. "Hey," he said
softly. "Come here." He reached out to pull her into his lap. "Can I
ask you a question?"

She stared at her fingers. "I'm sorry..." She glanced up at him and
allowed herself to be pulled and settled onto his lap. She nodded but
continued fiddling with her fingers.

"Am I the only one you've slept with outside of flights?" He knew
enough about Holder sensibilities to read into her unease.

Her eyes flew to his immediately. "You know that you are. I mean, you
were my first."

"Yes," he said gently and squeezed her shoulders. "That was a
beautiful gift I will always treasure." He wrapped his long arms
around her small frame. "Lanniya, I love you very much, but I don't
own you." He tried to look in her eyes but it was hard with the way
she was dodging it. "This is the Weyr. You belong to Anaeryth. But I
am always here for you."

"I don't understand." A horrid thought came to her and she swallowed
hard. "You don't want to be my weyrmate?"

"Of course I do sweetheart," he lifted her hand and kissed the ring on
her finger. "Do you love me and want to be my weyrmate?"

"I love you. You know I love you." She wrapped her arms around his
neck and buried her face in his neck. "I thought you were going to be
mad and hate me."

"Oh Faranth no," he said. "You're young and beautiful and any rider in
his right mind would make a play for your attention. That is just
natural sweetheart. Besides, we're a continent apart. How can I ask
you to be celibate. Our hearts are weyrmated. Would you ask me not to
enjoy a flight room?"

She shook her head against his neck. "No. But Pierka said that...that
if I did anything I would lose you. And..." she pulled her head away
and looked shamed. "my body wanted it, K'ale. I was afraid that you'd
hate me."

"Look," he lifted her chin. "We needed to talk about it so we both
know how the other one feels and don't have to be afraid. I'm not
going to love you any less for wanting to be with your friend. It's a
natural feeling." He shook his head. "I'm not sure how I would have
felt if you'd told me after you'd already slept with him but. No, I
might be hurt but I would still want to weyrmate."

She met his gaze and just looked at him for a long moment. "I wouldn't
ever want to hurt you. I love you." She curled up to him closer and
leaned her head against his shoulder, taking comfort in his nearness
and warmth. "If you wanted to... with another person and since I'm not
here..." She took a deep breath. "I'd understand."

His arms tightened around her. His eyes closed tightly. His heart knew
it would hurt but she needed this far more than he. His turns have him
experiences like this already without any strings attached. "I never
want to hurt you either," he said softly. "I'll understand."

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