Painful Decision

[Jelena]

Dear friends,

I have a bit of news to share with you, part good, part sad. I have been offered an amazing opportunity at work. I was asked to take the key role in further developing a project very dear to me, which may very well evolve into something substantially more financially rewarding. Because of all the insecurities tied to my boyfriend´s illness, we have to keep in mind I may one day be our sole source of income, so this opportunity is a very welcome one. However, it will take up a lot of time. As you guys know, I have already been very busy keeping up with work and everything else going on in my life right now.

I´ve done some serious thinking on what this means for my writing. My private writing I have given up months ago, but I really don´t want to give up writing with you guys as well. I would miss you too much and at the moment this is my only creative outlet and I need it desperately. I have been very dissatisfied with my own writing lately, though. I miss a sense of depth in my persona´s and in my replies to posts, because I´m spreading my already limited time between a too diverse group of characters. The decision I´ve come to came very hard, because it hurts me so much to think I´d disappoint you guys. But if the alternative is leaving, I´d rather give this a try and I hope you will all understand.

I´m going to limit myself to a single persona for the foreseeable future. That way I can still write with some amount of character depth, stay in touch will all of you guys and get my creative relaxation. I've thought long and hard about what character that should be, but it can't really be any other then Genna. I was so proud and dumbstruck when she impressed Lissath and I have been very, very unhappy with the way I treated that opportunity. I hope now I'll be able to give her and Lissath the depth of character they have and disserve to show. However, this also means I'm breaking up a lot of ties with all of your persona's and that hurts me probably more than you'd know.

I will still finish posts we already started, if you guys want, though it would be much appreciated if you can help me wrap them up soon. I'll put my persona's status on inactive and if needed, I'll NPC them for key-points in stories. If you'd like to adopt one of my persona's, or have them made adoptable, so you can find a new writer for them, please let me know. As for Rayan, I've contacted the Council on my wishes for him and I'll leave it up to them to decide if that's plausible. His position as Hallmaster will be available again, at least! So if you're interested in it, contact the Council

I just hope you will all forgive me for doing this and that you wil still trust me enough to keep writing with me. Please know I'm only doing this because the only other alternative I see right now is leaving altogether and I really can't handle that thought. I love Triad and everything it stands for! I've already had some very understanding and supportive reactions and those mean the world for me. I'm so proud to be a member of this group!

*hugs and apologies*
Jen/Jelena

[Avery]

First, congratulations that you have this chance at a good source of income - that sounds like a good decision for you and your boyfriend, and of course your RL comes first.

Sorry to hear it'll come at the expense of your personas, but I'm so happy you're not leaving altogether!

[Yvonne]

That is a painful decision! I've had to do the same in the past, and I know how heartbreaking it is. However your new position sounds amazing, and a little extra financial security (and a project you like!) is so important. I think you've made a good decision! And I'm glad you're not leaving entirely.

[Jane]

I'm sure most of us understand and have been through this ourselves if we're been writing socially for some time.  You are doing a great thing in reorganising things rather than let them drift.

Great news about the project.

[Heather]

Congratulations on your opportunity at work! I would rather have you here with 1 persona then not here at all

[Suzee]

We're behind you all the way. I'm also very glad you're going to keep at least one persona active. We'll miss the others but completely understand how real life must absolutely take center stage.

You da bomb and we love you!

[Paula]

Like everyone else is saying:  Congratulations, good luck and at least you're not leaving us fully.

[Leigh]

We love you, so of course we believe you should do what's right for you. Congrats on the new position, best wishes to your hubby, and we're glad you can stay.

[Jelena]

Thank you everyone! You're all making this so much easier for me. Now I'm actually looking forward to this new phase again You're the best!

[Len]

First off, congrats on the new position! *hugs*  You do what you need to do to make yourself happy. :-)

[Anika]

First and foremost. **CONGRATULATIONS!!**

Also, though I will miss posting with Rayan, good for you for finding a way to stay a part of things while real life is so busy!

[Miriah]

Many congrats! And all completely understandable

[Jelena]

Thanks guys :D

[Ames]

I TOTALLY understand and hear you. The hardest thing I did a few years back was retire some of my personas....and with life busy as it is now I'm considering whether to retire a few more now. Glad to know Genna is staying Maybe the others will return someday. I know quite a few of mine did!